Lisa says your not supposed to keep secrets from friends and i felt like spilling (like jenny says)and so I kinda said it...
I want to tell you ppl...but at the same time I don't want you ppl to know
do you understand?
I have my reasons for not wanting to tell...if i didn't have that restriction holding me back I would probably spill everything...
(btw. i am trying to use large and difficult words to practice for english xD)

okay. let's write like an essay.

What am I not telling my friends?

I don't know what the source of this is. This feeling makes me feel weird, like hurt? but missing something. I don't know! But I'm not depressed. Haha. But it also doesn't come from stress over exams. Now that would be weird =/.
The only other period in the past this emotion came up was in Yr 1. I had an irrational disliking to school suddenly. Perhaps it stemmed from my horrible and evil teacher. Whatever it was i kept getting this ache and I clung to home and didn't want to go to school. But I didn't really explain it to my mum until one day when she took me to school and i started crying. Blubbering and clinging onto her clothes, I said I hated school and missed home. Everyone was looking at me rather strangely and my teacher just glared at me as it was morning assembly. Embarrassing. I'm not the type to tell people the things i think are important or significant to me...so I keep it locked up and I blab about the daily events of my life and school to my mum and sis but if i have something on my mind it stays in it's secret little box.
Anyways, I get this weird feeling and I don't know where it comes from. I was lying in bed the other night and I was thinking about one of the reasons why this feeling is happening. After, I kept thinking about the cause it felt silly and for some reason that feeling didn't come much anymore. Now, it comes more often (weird?). However, it is less than in the beginning when it came every hour or so.
I don't know what it is.
Here is Jenny's Doctor Phil conversation where she immediately came up with a cause but no solution. The cause is not necessarily correct...it's a burden. See below:
(p.s. I'm sorry to trouble you ppl when its nearly exams) I shouldn't even be doing this, I'm supposed to be studying! xP)

On an off topic whilst I wait for "My Documents" to load so I can look for the conversation; I am off school today because I have to study!! And currently probably everyone is at school :D and i am at home multi-tasking...wells not really. After this I will go back to studying Maths.

I can't find it...haha. oh wells

wells how was school today peeps?
i found it but its got some stuff that i dunno whether i should put up or not. so bye!