5 things to say...

never to the face ><

1. I really don't understand what is wrong with me. LOL. it's got a lot of to with these lyrics >< ? It's like oh, no more of that weird thing in my stomach that felt like butterflies but wasn't but then I read the horoscope book (LMAO) and its like okay T_T so I worry or feel =/ when your not online and I'm like, you've blocked me. It's like I just gotta know your there to feel relief and don't think you've committed suicide. And for some reason, you keep me going to. Just to see you anyways. But you can't feel emo.

(P.S. I love you xD lol that's a book I read I justed wanted to type that up because of the P.S. LOL anyways continuing: To anyone reading what I'm writing, some parts are made up personality bits of a person so you won't really guess what I'm saying.)xP

2. Sometimes I'm thinking you really don't have the right to like someone. Because of your appearance. But then its like a cover for you to say secretly in crush with them so that you can feel bad knowing you're not supposed to and its like a burden and embarrassment to THEM. I hate you. You know that right? Because you piss me off so bad and suck at everything. But then again, the person who you are makes me happy and high sometimes, its just like that and you can make me jump, shout and run for miles in rain. But sometimes you're just like a deep dark hole and I can't understand you. It's retarded. It feels like you've become so many ppl trying to please everyone that now you can't find the real you. And it FRUSTRATEs and ANNNOYS me because I don't understand how a person is to know when they have landed the truth. So I will try to get to know you but right now its kinda a take as they please and go.

3. Sometimes life is hard. And you want to crawl in a hole and not come out and feel sorry for yourself and cry. I can't cry though. My tutor once said how her sister had depression and used to sit in reclusive corners and she refused to talk to anyone and would scream and cry and be emo but then on other times she would go high and crazy and could dance like no tomorrow. depression is a scary thing.

4. I wish i could tell ppl things but it makes me scared and worried. Way too much. Because I take up too much time worrying about others being happy and i don't stop to think is it working....i don't like ppl being sad around me or left out. I guess its the way i am...but it only applies to the ppl i care about.

5. To this particular person, we are supposed to be close but why do i struggle to make conversations with you and I have to make effort to hold one and i dread or I don't like being left alone with you because there is nothing to say. and there are alot of awkward silences. it's not supposed to be like that.

Now you can guess whats wrong with these lyrics =)